Who do we trust? Experts? Friends? Relatives? God? Having lived a while, I’ve found that my heart wants to trust, but I’ve been disappointed so many times, I wince when someone tells me to trust them. That same reluctance follows me when I submit my concerns to the Lord. Will He answer my prayer... the way I want? Will the answer to my prayer hurt... even though it might be good for me?
Listen to the music the Lord gave me about trust, and then I'll continue on this thought.
The Lord gave me this music to play, and is yours to bless your ears and heart.
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Not long ago, we were at church with our family. One of our sons went off to do an activity with his group. Earlier in the day, he had complained of a headache. I suspected dehydration since it was one of the first warm days of spring, and he spent a lot of time outside and hadn’t drunk any water that I knew of during that time. Before we left, he drank water and took a pain reliever. Since he felt better, we went off to church.
Not long after the kid’s groups assembled and departed, a parent came to me, telling me that our son wasn’t feeling well because of stomach cramps. I rushed to where he was, and helped him back to the church and got him to the bathroom. On the way, I prayed over him. Prayers to heal him, prayers for Jesus to calm the storm in his belly. I felt God’s peace that he would be okay. Fifteen minutes passed, and I was getting concerned. He finally came out, but the pain hadn’t gone away... it had gotten worse. I sat him down in the hallway, and went to gather the rest of the family to facilitate a quick exit. While finding the rest of the family, I asked God if this was more serious than I thought. Was he sick? Did he have a blockage? Was this gas & cramping from his earlier dehydration? God didn’t answer me.
When I got back, the pain was obvious on our son’s face. I asked him if he felt he needed to go to the hospital or go home. His response was that he didn't want to move. I asked him what I needed to do again... take him home or take him to the hospital. Through clenched teeth, eyes barely open and filled with tears, he uttered, “Pray!”
I got down on my knees in front of him, telling God I already did that, and asked Him why it wasn’t working. All the things I read about healing... praying with confidence and thankfulness shot through my mind. Over and over, I said to myself, I’ve already done that, and he’s still in so much pain. Once on my knees, I took his hands and I buried my head in one of his thighs. As I cried, I said, “Jesus, I know you heal, I know you’ve already healed this boy of ours. I’m crying out to you now, because I don’t know what else to say. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know how serious this is... Jesus I ask for your mercy...” By this time, with tears in my eyes, I was looking into his eyes. I saw his head move, his lips move... and the most beautiful burp came out! I suppose I should have been worried that there might be something more, but I just stayed where I was. In that moment, Jesus gave me the answer I needed. Our boy was going to be alright. Our boy had the pain of cramps and gas. Soon after, we were able to head home, pain free!
What I learned, was that God doesn’t want us to follow a formula in our prayers. He wants our hearts to petition to Him. He wants us to be well. He wants us to love and seek Him with all our heart, soul and mind. He wants us to trust Him.
After my initial prayer, I have to admit my trust in my own prayer wained. My trust in my initial feeling and assurance from God that our son would be alright was questioned. God pursued me through my agonized son. He showed me the humbleness and faith that our son had in Him. He showed me I had more to do. He showed me I had to bring my heart to Him.
As tough as our lives get, we are assured by God that He is there all the time, that even though it doesn’t seem like it, He’s there working things out for our good. A great story reinforcing this is the story of Joseph, in Genesis 37 & 39-50.
God’s grace favored Joseph through his rise and fall in his family and in Egypt. God positioned him in such a way that he was called up by Pharaoh himself. So impressed with Joseph was Pharaoh, that he elevated Joseph to the 2nd in command in Egypt, where he was in charge of the whole land of Egypt. From there, he was able to save his family and God’s people from extreme famine. Joseph had to endure being taken away from his family, slavery, false accusations, being left behind and unremembered. God kept him safe through all of that strife, and trained him for the special role he was to fill...
Don't think for a moment He's not doing the same for us!
Until next time...
In Jesus' Love, I bless you to look to our Lord in trust. To seek Him for His living water, that you might keep from becoming dehydrated in your hope. To know that God is always working on your behalf, even when you're in tough circumstances.
Pray these scriptures to bless you and others. Love and trust for our Lord will grow in your heart from speaking these over your life and the lives of others.
John 4:10, 13-14 (NIV)
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Holly Van Gilder